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'Today is a new day in 2015. 2015, one of the awkward word for me to say, it make me happy.
What do you think about turning into the new year? When I say "turn into the new year!", it seems like a good thing or a bad thing? You might want to say like it's a bad thing. It's because it means "we are a year older than before".
Yes. Right. Totally right. But for me to embrace this year, it's kind of different from before.
So I asked me why I'm feeling like this? To guess the reason, it's all about my time that I've spent 1 year with soridream. Every year we feel like "Omg, so fast, the older we've gotten, we felt like it's getting fast than before, isn't it? And especially this year was so fast! What the!! I was doing nothing, but the time is gone, what should I do ahead?" It's like a never ending cycle of our life. And so did I.
But as I told you, its feeling was really different. Maybe I think 2014 was really satisfactory year for me.
Of course, the regrettable things are so many like usual thing. But you know what, not so many and complext thing like before.

Someone says about present. Like.. "'present' word comes from pre+sent. it means that it already exist here And the reason why it's most important thing than regretting the past or imagining the future. Gift and the day are same word. So we have to live our life without any further thoughs.

I can't say I did do my best for 1 year, I've always tried to be here, and I did. Thank god here.

And having a worship yesterday, I realized that I was here as God want me to do be. It was here. Even if I suck at doing everything, my jesus lead me until I got here. And the only thing I feel is like a destiny.
When I think about all of those thing that god get me until now, I could say, 'Amen'.
I'm really really grateful for my current life. Especially about spending 1 year safely.