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'3, November. What a sad day! But I would say, a new day for mong.
What does it mean?
One of the reason why I say "sad" words is that yesterday was leaving day of mong.

On this sunday, as soon as I arrived at home, my family said me. "Today is the last day with mong"(he is our dog and also one member of my family for about 7 years...omg......)
I was really shocked. "What? What are you saying, mom?"
Mom said that she decided to get other church friend's family raise him.
Actually before I heard that, I was full of lots of happiness because of god's grace. But! I was.. gloomy soon.

I know, my mom wanted to send him to somewhere by moving on current home. But I was really stick to the opposite side with my siblings.

By the way, this is what I was afraid of . I can't believe he isn't here.
You know, while I'm writing this diary, now I'm kind of sad.. Like seems that my tears drop. But I'm not gonna cry anymore.

7 years.. It's been a long time than I thought. But I thought it doesn't make me so sad like now.
And I can't believe whenever I come home, he isn't there.
Honestly, when it comes to my dog, I feel like I'm a sinner.
I've always saying just the words like.. "I'll go for a walk with him everyday." "I'll get him to eat lots of high quality snack" "I'll wash him". In addition, when I open my sketch book that I wrote down my vision list for vision card, you can see lots of list about him. Omg... That's why I'm really so sad.

Mom said he was running forward, but she felt different thing than before.
Like.. he knows everything about his future.
And she got him good clothes, a injection for prevent from disease..
But, I think... he's not gonna satisfied with these things for a moment..
He needs just love. Right? Anyway, now I'm really sad. And I really want to see him again.